I love art. I think of myself as an artist. And, if it ever stops raining this week, I’m about to get wild in my studio with some encaustic painting on my fine art photographs. My brother and mom were asking me about this. I think they were simply trying to appear interested because we were in the car because I don’t think most people are interested in it. I heat up beeswax and put it on the top of my photographs and cut into it to create texture. I am obsessed with texture. I am late to appointments because I found a concrete wall that inspired me and I paused to photograph it. Occasionally, clients send me some visual inspiration for their sessions, and it’s usually portraits of other people. I send them back abstract images of color and texture, maybe a 35 mm film image of a weed growing through a crack in the side walk. My ideal client says, “I don’t even know if I get it but I LOVE LOVE LOVE it, and I trust you.”
I was telling my brother, “This could be something that becomes my next thing…where I work on massive canvases and sell my fine art photography in art shows…or I could burn holes in the paper and sell all of the equipment I purchased and look back and think, ‘Well, that was a big mess.’”
I’ve been a freelance photographer for ten years now, and I’m proud. And, I’ve failed more times than I can count along the way. I’ve wasted time and money and energy, but maybe it wasn’t a waste. We place too much importance on achieving our dreams, but perhaps we’re simply meant to pursue them. I’m here to offer you the idea that it’s ok to pursue your passions even if it never produces. Sometimes I take boring photography jobs that don’t necessarily ring my creative bells just so I can shoot more film and be home in time to pick my son up from school. Each of us gets to decide what success is for ourselves.
Wow, I didn’t mean to get preachy, but I guess those are the words I needed to read this morning. I want to show you these images of an artist who found me and asked me to photograph her work. I was stunned at her talent. My friends and clients who love neutrals and textures are sure to love these. She’s in the beginning stages of creating a website and social media presence, and I can’t wait to see how she incorporates these images.